Penguji........A moment of pleasure...a lifetime of misery....

Setiap kali musin lent, kitai selalu maca cerita Jesus di uji 40 ari ba kampung puang.  So maya lent tok meh maya kitai reflect on ourselves napi penguji dunya...napsu dunya.  A time for self denial and more prayers.

Talk about penguji, as human semua kitai sigi di gagai ya.  Sengaja atau pun enda sengaja, penguji ada di mana mana.  It's a matter of how you face it and yang penting how you learnt from it.

Back to the bible story on how Jesus handle the temptation in the dessert, as humans i don't think we are able to do that, but how i wish we can do that.  Its a wonderful example to everyone.  He just quote what was written in the bible.  Did we realise that's the best way to fight temptation?  That's why knowing the bible is a very important aspect in a christian's life.  But many of us including myself are so ngelusu when it comes to studying God's words.  That's why penguji nyamai amat ngalah ke kitai.

Nama kebuah kitai di uji?  My thinking is always; maybe God wants to test our faith?, maybe God wants us to learn something from there?, maybe its a wake up call from God?  How do we know if its a test from God or we are just being naughty; sengaja ka ngaga penyalah?  How to tell the difference?

hmmm..ngelu pala endu tupai mikirin..........

Whatever it is...if you know you have been tempted....stumble and fall...jampat ke angkat bejalai baru ba jalai ti betul.   Yes...we confessed our sins, ask God for forgivess..but why can't we forgive ourselves..why can't we accept God's forgiveness then?   Another difficult question to answer................

Selamat Taun Baru 2012


Selamat Taun Baru 2012.

puuuuu!...amat lama ruai ku tu petang.  Tersangatlah sibuk Endu Tupai semenjak dua menjak tu.  Tu pun encuri jam ngabas ruai ba upis.

Nama azam taun baru kitak wai?  Engku as usual, enda ibuh macam macam azam, azam ke lama nyau nyadi ala..kazam!!  hahaha..

But anyway, walaupun nadai berazam, tang Endu Tupai want to make it a point of not letting work taking over my life.  I have been very stressful in 2011, I brought work home and brought it back to the office undone.  I skip exercise in favour of completing my work.  But yet at the end of the day, no body die when the work is not complete.  I have been obsessed with blogs/facebook to the point of neglecting my home sweet home, my bintis/cik pots are all furry brown drowning in dust.  What's the point of buying them if you don't take good care of them? 

Went to Mama Nunut's home last weekend and saw how serene and beautiful her home is.  Her bintis are all beautifully displayed and clean!  Ahh....gave me inspiration already.

Speaking of blogs, I used to feel that I must update it as regularly as possible, must talk about the current affairs and what nots.  Well...I should read more this year and update blogs whenever I feel like it.  Ahaa..this could be my 2012 resolution.  And there's clutter to deal with at home.

Oh..well!..thought of posting cerita christmas and new year just now, but then this lunch break is coming to an end.  Maybe tonight.

Cheers.  Wishing everyone a blessed 2012.

Tuai

Tuai - lembau nyebut/ngenang pasal tuai.  Including aku empu meh.  Nobody likes getting old, even getting old gracefully.  Semua mensia enti ulih ka awet muda selama nya.  Ya ke beduit, ulih meh berunsut ngau segala macam ubat/cosmetic.  Ya ke berani gik, sanggup ngadu chemical peel, bejik ke butuk, bitamin.  Ishh..enda alah rintai.  But alas...all will be in vain, laban sigi udah atur Petara, yang hidup akan mati, yang muda akan tua.

Yang paling menyedihkan Endu Tupai, ngenang anak anak ke enda nemu malas budi apai indai udah sida besai, pandai.  Meda apai indai muka dah macam perca buruk munyi ko Kak Lehot, alu nyau nyadi ke burden sida.  To make life easier, anjung ja ke rumah pengandai tuai.  huhu..sinu ngenang ngai ke diri empu nerima nasib yang serupa.  Enti anak kitai manah, udah belaki bebini, engka nyau alah ga laban sepuas sida (spouse).  Sapa ke bulih anak and menantu yang prihatin, untung amat.  Ukai ngumbai semua menantu enda manah.  Kadang kadang menantu manah, mentua ga bikin hal. 

Pulai ngagai cerita pengandai tuai nya tadi, kadang kadang, ke tuai nya enda tan begulai enggau bala anak, menantu.  Kadang kadang sigi nadai bekeluarga, ke pen enda ngarap ke urang ngibun. Mayoh macam meh kebuah sida tu tau terengkah ba pengandai tuai.  Yang aku paling sinu, indai apai berabis reta nyekula ke anak.  Udah anak nyau pandai, kerja manah, alu ngai meda apai indai yang macam perca buruk tadi.  Group sida si tanggang tok.

Kala ku ninga cerita ba radio; udah reta indai sida abis di ambi bala anak, indai alu di buru. Sinu amat..pu neh enti anak ku jemah ila jai ngau aku, abis da cik pot, da RA di angkut sida, aku alu di buai ke tisi.  hahahaha....arap ke nya cerita dongeng aja.

Ideally, bala anak nya meh ti patut ngibun apai sida sampai apai indai sida ya parai.  Jai, manah sida ya, anak mesti ngenang jasa sida dah ngidup ke sida.  Munyi ko pepatah laut, Ibu boleh menjaga 10 orang anak, tetapi 10 orang anak belum tentu boleh menjaga seorang ibu.

Last saturday, din Endu Tupai ba rumah pengandai tuai, lending a helping hand nolong meresi rumah, berapi ke sida.  Makan besar sida sari nya.  hehehe  Part of our Outreach Program to the community.

Sinu meda pendiau sida dia.  Bisi ke enda dapat, garing garing ngetat ke diri.  Ya ke dapat sesegau sebelah tengah laman.  Ya ke rajin bejako, bercerita bekunsi nama kebuah tau landed dia.

The run down building

Agi dapat nyembi tawil

Stidi Tupai....sapu ja..pas nya sepu ke ribut baru.. Ni alah tembu.

Nukar wire netting sida.  Sponsored by the School of Foundation.

Pusing dulu sebedau mantun rumput..wajip.

Sessi berapi.  Seronok ah..berapi beramai ramai..  Ko kolig ku nya, ikan enda tau guring lama iga, ngai ke kering, sida kan nadai gigi....ish..ish..sempat ga Endu Tupai tesenyum.

Makan besai sida lemai nya.  Simple but sodap because its cooked with love.

Ditu sida ngabis ke ari, berandau ngau pangan diri, endur makai.

It feels good to be able to give back/lend a helping hand to the community especially those who really need it.
hmmm...Endu tupai?  Nyerah ke diri ke dalam ibun Tuhan.

Enti anak sakit...

Enti anak sakit, indai pun ngau ga sakit.  Enda tindok bemalam malam.  In the case of mamatupai, keempat empat anak asma memagang.  Asma bai ada.

Start ari no. 1 sampai no. 4, hospital is my second home.  Most of the time it will be due to asma; kadang kadang high fever.

Shell Clinic, Columbia Asia, MCMC sigi ngelala amat kami sebilik.  Enti udah check in bebekal ke nyut, walker.  Buat macam rumah sendiri.  Thank God, semua kompeni tanggung, enti kediri, din meh ba GH.  Enti ba GH kada tau mai perengka baka nya.  Indah botol susu enda tau masuk for babies baru ada.

Laban nyau kelalu suah, bala lutur nyau asai kaban.  Enti maya meresa patient, enti sida meda anak EtE, agi tindok dalam nyut, enda asoh gerak, ngai ke nyabak, biar ya empu nyenguk ke dalam nyut meresa ya. 

Agi ingat ke jako girl misi ba shell clinic suba madah ke aku, enti ya meda weather enda manah, nemu ya Mervyn will be coming soon, ko ya.  Sigi amat ah; sensitip amat ga siko nya.  Weather jai; asma, musin asam bebungai; asma.  Jerebu niboh sebut.

Apu..enti ngenang ngibun anak sakit kelia..siang kerja full time, malam beribun full time.  Maya serious cases, ngambi emergency leave beribun di clinic.  Puji Tuhan, enda ga dibuai kerja tegal nya.

Enti anak fever especially, my MM surrender enda berani ngibun, laban mayoh cases anak lupot kelalu panas.  Kala happen suba, my youngest son lupot kelalu angat.  Maya nya other family members nyau piknik.  Kami dua enda ngau laban ya ke enda dapat.  Apu..........nyau gegetar jari EtE meri ya ubat ke udah diajar Lutur.  Ninjik endar papatupai ulih di kuntik, alu betaban kami ke MCMC.  Sempat ga aku nyapai baju laban maya nya benong bekemban baru dah mandi.  Asai ka terjun ke kereta dengan kemban itu sekali laban kelalu panik.

When I looked back, I thank God laban my children always come home healthy.  Maya nya suba sigi mutap meh; lelak, stress.  Enti compare with those whose child never come home...hmmm sedih ku ngenang, my experience was nothing.

Nya meh bala anak, arap ke ingat ke jasa ibu dan bapa.

Last week tinggal EtE ke Kuching, kena asma ga Mark.  Buntau baru ga.  Nasib ketahanan badan tu agi kuat.

Ngelagu diri nyadi pilot.

Life is fragile...

Don't you think so?  One minute you saw this person, the next day for all you know they are gone. Just like that.  Yes, really our life is very fragile.  Here today and gone tommorow.

So if life is fragile how do we continue to live knowing that nothing is secure and guaranteed?  Sometimes I am haunted by this question as well.  My only consolation is to know that our lives is controlled by our creator; God.

For every disadvantage that comes along the way, there's an advantage attached to it.  It's not what it seems to be.

Why am I rambling on all this?  Hubby's cousin just passed away last week due to a freak accident.  hmmm..I still cannot believe this, which leads me to think about how fragile our life is.  Like I said earlier, here today, gone tommorow.

This year our families have seen 3 deaths within our families.  Come to think of it, I used to dream about losing my tooth. 

So friends, appreciate each and every moment of your lives and repent always.

21 May 2011 Judgment Day?

Yesterday morning, in the car, on the way to church, saw an article in the local newspaper about Harold Camping's prediction that 21 May 2011 is Judgment Day.  Was pleasantly surprised.  I read about his prediction few months back and then forgot about the whole thing.

Oh well!...we are all still here and if I'm not mistaken, this is the 3rd of his prediction that did not come to pass.  When will he ever learn that only GOD know the secret?

I also understand that there are some people in the US who quit their jobs in believing his prediction.  And he also get people to fund his radio station.  He must have been very rich by now.  Now those people must be very annoyed by now.

Whatever it is , I believe the best thing we should do is to repent everyday, pray and keep watch because the hour will come like a thief in the night.

Be anxious no more

Bah!.........D day has arrived.  Result has been made known.  Be anxious no more.

Bisi UBAH ba Miri ditu.  The unsangkarable has become a reality.  Some prayers are answered, some need to do reflections on themselves.

Whatever it is, hopefully sida ke bejanji to serve the rakyat will do so with integrity.

(Enda panjai post tupai sekali tu; agi tekejut katak).

Tekenyit Katak

Baru nuduk ke diri ba kerusi gereja this morning, alu dikejutkan ngau berita; one of our church member dah pass away yesterday.  Kati enda tekenyit katak, sakit enda, semua enda, tetiba ninga rita ya mati accident.

Nyau ngenung kami dua papa tupai ngenang how fragile our life is.

Selalu ninga rita orang sakit nyau betaun taun lama nya; tang still around and when you see orang ke sihat walafiat tetiba nyau dulu, nyau berunding dalam ati. Seput kitai mensia anytime ulih padam enda milih dek gerai or dek sakit.  The chances are equal.  Enda alah ke enggai, ke nakut.

Siti aja utai ulih di prepare kitai; repent and purify our hearts everyday.

My sympathy and condolence to the family of the late Linda Nichols.  May her soul rest in peace.

Something to ponder on

I saw this on mnlist.  I love to read their posting.  They talked about living a simple life free of clutter/distraction.

Just want to share with you.  I find this to be very true.  No wonder we are all stressed up in one way or another.

Quote.
"Our lives are filled with things we need to do. Until we look a little more closely at those needs.
Think about what needs you might have: the need to check your email every 15 minutes, or empty your inbox, or read all your blogs, or keep something perfectly neat, or dress to work in the latest fashions. The need to constantly badger your kids about things, or control your co-workers, or meet with everyone who wants a meeting, or be wealthier and wealthier, or own a nice car.

Where do these types of needs come from? They’re completely made up.
Sometimes the needs are created by society: the industry you’re in requires you to work until 9 p.m. or dress in impeccable suits. Your neighborhood has certain standards and if you don’t have an impeccable lawn and two BMWs in the driveway, you’ll be judged. If you don’t have the latest iPhone, you won’t have your geek cred or status symbol, and you’ll be jealous of those who do.

Sometimes the needs are made up by ourselves: we feel the urge to check our emails or RSS feeds or news websites or text messages or Twitter accounts constantly, even though there is no negative societal or work consequences if we don’t keep up with them. We want a perfectly made up bed even if no one else cares. We want to create a list of goals in life or for the year and achieve every one of them, even if nothing bad will happen if we don’t achieve most of them.

Either of these types of made-up needs can be eliminated. All it takes is the willingness to let go.
Examine one of your made-up needs, and ask yourself why it’s such an important need. Ask what would happen if you dropped them. What good would it do? Would you have more free time and more space to concentrate and create, or less stress and fewer things to check off each day? What bad things would happen — or might happen? And how likely is it that these things would happen? And how could you counter-act them?

These needs are created by fears, and the more honest we are about these fears, the better. Face the fears, and give yourself a little trial period — allow yourself to let go of the need, but just for an hour, or a day. Just for a week. If nothing bad happens, extend the trial, and slowly in this manner you’ll find that the need wasn’t a need at all.
It can feel good to let go, and by letting go, you are freeing yourself.
Unquote.

You can read more on minimalism on Zen Habits.  The link is on my blog sidebar.

Celebrating Love?

As the whole world knows, today, 14 February is Valentine's day.  Would not go into the details of it's origin but  it was in remembrance of a sacrificial love.

Today it has become so commercialised that Valentine's day means giving away love cards, red roses that once cost a ringgit per stem to ten ringgit per stem; and people still buy it!, chocolates and teddy bears.  Those who received this things from their loved ones will be grinning from ear to ear.  Those who do not, huhu...can sulk the whole day.

But fear not, for those who think they are forgotten take heart; it could be due to the following:

1. Your partner thinks its not practical to spend money on roses only to see it wilt and become dry flowers the next day.  Not to mention the chocolates will make you fat and teddy bears are reserved for kids. Lucky you, if he thought of buying you a car instead!

2.  He's not the romantic kind (like papa tupai) and can't even remember his own kids birthdays, let alone Valentine's day.

3.  He thinks, its only for Mat Sallehs.

But, look at this way, he loves you (in his own special way; its proven, men are not good at expressing love because they are from Mars..ha.ha.ha), he provides for you,  he is a responsible father and most of all he is faithful to you.  Now isn't that a better gift than flowers, chocolates and teddy bears which are here today and gone tommorow?

Let's not forget, we have received the greatest love gift of all; when Christ died for our sins and we are forgiven.  Let's make today as a day to celebrate that greatest love of all.

What did I get today?  Nothing, but I know love is in the air.

Back To School (a bit too late entry...)

For 1 and a half month, towards the end of 2010, rumah EtE riuh rendah, tunggang langgang baka tongkang karam due to school holiday season. Routine bala anak; tindok, dani, makai, meda TV/DVD (gusti ke mayoh gik)raun and mess up the place.  'sigh'...niboh ngau cardio, ngemas rumah udah cukup bepeluh.  It happens every school holidays anyway..

Now its back to quiet, tranquil and neat except for the weekend mess. Look, I'm not complaining, just sharing.  I'm actually fearing the day our nest becomes empty. I would be missing the noisy days.  I'm just telling myself to appreciate each and every day of the noise, the mess and their whims and fancies because before you know it, you are all alone.  'sedis ku ngenang'....Life is like that.

Anyway beserimbai ngau musim sekula start, jadual Ete pun sendat.  Tumu pagi with the mata still kulap2 ngantok, nyau beranjung school.  Fortunately papa tupai has been cooperative for the past 2 years, his turn is bringing them home.

Lemai pulai kerja, baju sekula mesti rendam dulu laban mesti diberus, especially for the youngest, kadang kadang pengamah mengalahkan orang pulai ari umai.

Malam ari nyau ga tuition.  Suba we send the kids to the tutor house.  Now, the tutor comes to our house; easier but costlier.

Speaking of costlier, this two years Ete really have to tarik handbrake meli toys, laban nyau melanja tuition fees bala anak. Ka pen enda, school aja enda ulih arap.

Ko Papa Tupai, enti enda cukup duit, nyin gadai..(pointing to my beloved portmeirion..hu..hu..hu..)

Benong concentrate; tuition time

1.1.11

Wishing all my friends a Happy, Prosperous and Blessed year 2011

1.1.11  On the morning of 1.1.11, I checked my sugar level, the reading was 11.  Senyum kediri Tupai, whereas I should be alarmed as that reading is considered high.  Because it sort of ngam with the date.  I sempat sms my doctor about it.  I think he won't be pleased.  he..he..

Anyway, I believe some people would think that its an auspicious date.  I think hotels are fully booked with weddings, doctors in private clinics would be busy forcing babies to come out into this world (kasih sida agi seronok in the comfort of the womb dah kena halau) amidst those who were destined to arrive on that day itself......hmmm..manusia macam macam ada.

As for Tupai, every day is a special day.  Every day is a good day given by the Lord.  Our happiness depends very much on which side of life you are looking at.  Not on your surroundings and the people around you.  Not on how wealthy you are (I've seen lots of wealthy but miserable people)

Azam EtE this year; As For Me and My House, We Will Serve The Lord.